Losing touch & holding firm.

Even if im only going to be back for a night, i dun mind spending my 4 hours travelling back and forth. I adores my family beyond words, that nothing else on this earth can yet replace. I feel guilty whenever i dont go home or rather, spending the well-deserved time sleeping in hall. It is not whether i have a choice or not, but i have to learn to be more independent emotionally. The sunday back home was great. All the family matters rambling about my ears, about my sister's wedding, my dad's smaller ang pow, my mum's complain abt dad walking into the toilet with slippers when she just cleaned it a second ago, my sister's new set of shampoo, my brother's oh-so-cool room with his new surround sound system, a new extra unnecessary DvD player in the house, a new long awaited digital camera, my new changed bedsheet, baby jingxian calling me ' ah wen- jie jie, ah wen-jie jie ', my dad's long-string of irritating questions. Of all the topics that they talked of during lunch & dinner, i kept quiet. Just purely listening, purely absorbing how life in my family has changed while im not around. I wish to absorb all that i could within that few gathered hours. Even by sitting in front of a tv, they could pull off any topics, be it a possible new 34'inch tv set, or a possible renovation of the whole house when my sis move over to randolph's place and my eldest sis touting about her xmas cum new year trip to taiwan, her head over heels experience cause of the close proximity she had with one of F4's memeber (*hmmn*), the RM700+ blue label burberry's handbag, the numerous pub she visited and the tonnes of books she bought that she couldnt find back in JB or S'pore, abt sue's new annual dinner's dress that i looked damn off in, her coming turkey trip wholly sponsored by prudential, about her small photo being featured in the center page of the newspaper just because she met her sales target, about my brother's new project, my 2nd sister's well-known company having retrenchment and that it just might be her, abt suey coming back from KL today when i left from home back to hall, about my new ring which my sister thought was ugly (*erm*, not up to her to decide...i thought my brother's one was even uglier), about maggie & saucy who always sneak into the house and start to lick my toes when im totally anware that they are just below my sofa. I realised i just cant stop thinking about them.

However, when im back in hall, the first person i would like to meet is alvin. When you are going to be away for your reservist and your vacation module in thailand, i will deifnitely miss you. I dont mind you not spending my 21st with me, BUT you will have to compensate my lost. I'll have a take. I shall go back to my family when you are not around. BUT you still must compensate!